The MRI report declared that my back, hip and thigh pain officially stem from a herniated disc. Not what I wanted to hear. My physical therapist made my orders clear: no bending, twisting or crouching over. Great. That left little on the can do list, and certainly not cleaning the house that was in desperate need of it and not pulling the weeks in the flower beds that had grown taller than small trees. Then my daughter came home for 5 days to seek rest, TLC and air conditioning as she fought what looked like some sort of flu virus. Who gets flu in June? And a sudden death of someone extra special in our church and very well known in the community meant our service group went into overdrive to help with meals, support and services. So important, but exhausting. Though I tried to follow the rules, my back started to hurt more. I woke up yesterday with a migraine that didn't want to go away. I was eating mindlessly; one of my sure signs of stress overload. And, as I was finally heading home last night in ridiculous 5:30 traffic on a 3 lane interstate, my front tire suddenly spewed steam as it blew out...
I was able to safely pull the car over close to the guard rail. I stopped.
I needed to stop. I needed to put a different spin on everything that has been happening. I needed to start pushing myself in a positive direction. And that's just what I started to do...
When I feel myself spiraling down the slippery slide of emotional exhaustion, I have found one thing that really helps me. I reach for a pen and notebook and write a list of everything I am thankful for. This enables me to put a positive spin on what's been happening and helps me put perspective on my life. I want to share a portion of mine:
I am thankful for...
-having medical care available to me
-a wonderful physical therapist
-I will not need surgery
-not needing total bed rest!
-most of my body is healthy
-good friends to share everything with
-my wonderful husband mowing, mulching and watering plants
-I can hire the teen next door to pull weeds, and he is happy to help
-I can still see the flowers!
-I have working air conditioning
-my daughter calls me!
-she got over the flu in less than a week
-I am part of a wonderful church community
-I was driving in the far right lane
-No one was injured
-The car wasn't damaged
-I have AAA
-I had enough gas to run the air conditioning on the 92 degree day while waiting for the tow truck
-I had a new tires with a replacement warantee on them
....And that's exactly what I needed. To put my focus on the good things in these situations. Today, I am headache free and relaxed. I even ate my yogurt and blueberries mindfully this morning. Life is good. As that old saying goes, when life hands you lemons, make lemonade!